Dearest, You are running in a race where nobody fired the starting gun. No wonder you are so tired, looking around for your competitors and only finding the ones you create, never quite winning because there are no judges to point out the finish line. Here, let Nadeem run beside you a moment and mop your brow, and maybe you won't hit me when I tell you the biggest joke of your life: There is no race. You won before you were ever born, at the moment the Beloved gloriously conceived of beautiful, wondrous You. -- written 29Oct05 (c) 2005 nadeem (at) artisart.org